Early november dream

Last nigh i had such a vivid dream.
I wonder what goes through my head when dreams like this happen.
I was driving with some other 2 people through some old and dusty road, similar to the ones i have seen in many areas of my country.
We were at a national guard toll when they asked the 2 guys in the front of the car to get out of the car (this definitely has happened to me in real life)
At that moment, somebody went next to our car and made me signals of moving myself to their car, i did and they arrested this 2 people in my car without noticing that i was once part of the car passengers.
They found coke in their bags, i ran away, i had nothing to do with it.

Later on somebody knows i was in that car and i keep running away from different people that might see me at a hospital, some guy helps me and at some point i found myself crying and telling him that i didn't know what to do anymore, i tried so hard being good in life and now this happened to me.
The phone rang, i picked up and a voice asked me
        "is this Marysabel" i said "who's this?"and
they answered      "what, do you have something you are ashamed of? or running from something that you just can't admit who it is?" 
that scared me, so i said    "no, i have nothing to be ashamed of, i'm a great student and great human i just got in some situation that i have nothing to do with.... and yes i'm Marysabel"

After that i just woke up and was worried things took a wrong turn for me in life, after i realized i actually just spent yesterday surfing, instead of running and hiding from people, sigh, i'm safe.

The light is always around
and i appreciate it so much
specially in the early morning when i no longer fear my mind
at night when i work like the ants do on my deck barrels
there comes a time where i head to bed
my brain might be tired and my inside fulfilled of chamomile tea
but this doesn't make my imagination stay still
i still worry about the closet and what my head likes reminding me of fear of my closet ghosts
i go to bed and always give it my back
and the morning comes soon enough
and the light lit up the bright green of my covers
and the happiness of a heart that always delights itself with colors.

The smell of flowers on fine hairs, so soft as silk just slipping between two fingers of a hand

so much fierceness just covering a deer in between a forest.

A hermit in disguise with an elephant heart inside and the romanticism of an era that is long gone. 

Ideas

This post is pretty much a composition of ideas for my thesis.
I want change, we have to fight for it one at a time i guess and my focus is food.

Some ted talks i found useful for my research.
http://www.ted.com/talks/tristram_stuart_the_global_food_waste_scandal.html

http://www.ted.com/talks/ellen_gustafson_obesity_hunger_1_global_food_issue.html

http://www.ted.com/talks/jamie_oliver.html

One of my favorites, an 11 year old Birke Baehr actually made me stop ignoring how important the food scenario is in the US
http://www.ted.com/talks/birke_baehr_what_s_wrong_with_our_food_system.html

for more, feel free to check what i'm doing here 

Always is nothing at the end many times.
What do we find after hours of a never ending dream?
More heart tricks, we love it still, being in love with ideas
but...

..There are evenings when some are heading to a roof,
it's not cold anymore, some smile like a foolish in love of a world
that nobody has guaranteed.

Distances, stories, dreams and just the patience of waiting for
the next tidal wave that ends up drifting some of us in another land.

Dogs

I was wandering in the street today, the weeks are usually slow if i don't have projects pending or art running in my head, my thoughts are pretty usual so i'm trying to ignore them but there is this thing about dogs...

Today i figured why i'd like to be a dog one day, they are so easy to read, among them and for some of us humans i guess, they move their tails happily when they like another dog or somebody, they are very honest and straight forward among them, if they don't like the other new dog friend they'll say it right away and move forward if needed... sigh, i can only wonder about the other animals since i don't share as much as i do with dogs and i definitely can't see beyond, at least not inside the city.

A new place awaits for me.

Love for all.

Walker

He's the person that would sacrifice crossing the biggest distances in the world just to spend a minute by her side, yet nobody ever saw this.
With fluffy hair like the one you find on a rat terrier, he dances and stumbles and makes people laugh.

I once laughed around him, and nowadays i just sit next to him while looking for a little bit of comfort, we reminisce of the past but most of all of the future that hasn't yet come to us "when does humans relationships became so hard? did i lost the touch?" he asks away, and i always smile trying to give him a bit of relief, "no, i guess the good ones are always taken right away" we laugh, i cut open little round danish breads, so golden and soft, i fill them up with gouda cheese and they go to the oven where they melt until it starts looking like candle wax.

We had cake, we had jelly, we had long years of friendship, we just had another night, the kind we always had and the ones i hope to always have anywhere.